Near Death Experience!

Ha... exaggerate ja lebih title tu. But honestly, this experience is actually like a wake up call for me. I was feeling fatigue last week and I blamed it on school works, studies and so on. Well, I was sadly mistaken. Went to KPJ for a checkup and the result?!

Sugar level : 13

Blood Pressure :140/100! + fever

Aiyoo.., so I had no choice but to be warded for 3 days. You see, the last time I got admitted was in 2000 when I gave birth to Adia. But I was happy at that time, so staying for 2 3 nights in the hospital was ok. tapi kali ni, I was bored to death. Rizal went to work, the girl kept me company but couldn't stop complaining about being bored. Can't blame her, though.

KPJ is a new hospital and they haven't install Astro channel yet,unlike KMC. So, I ended up watching Ho Chak! That was the episode when the hosts went to China and tried exotic food ( boleh bayangkan depa makan apa??!!)


Now I'm recovering. Really really have to watch my diet, no more teh tarik, no more nasi2 for me. Minum plain water SAHAJA. Forget about losing weight, as my friend Jabishah said, you diet not only to lose weight but also for your health! True, Ja and thanks for your word of wisdom.

5 bottles of this- isotonic solution kot??

To tell you the truth, I'm kinda serik and I really don't want to go thru this episode anymore. Selagi daya, I will try to watch my diet. Semoga Allah memberiku kekuatan menahan nafsu nak makan KFC!! Hehehe...

BIL's Engagement

As mentioned, on the 2nd of Raya Haji we went to Puchong for the meminang. I was not in the mood of celebrating but tak mau la ruin the event so I just went along. It's a good thing though to get away from the sombre mood.

Emi's (BIL) apartment in Shah Alam.

The fiance, Siti Nurafidah

Gambar topsy-turvy sorry, salam dulu??

Baru sarung cincin??!! hehehe

Ours and theirs ( the legendary green apples, En. Sharizal?)

Our hantaran, cantik kan? hehehehe... sapa order ntah ;)

The discussion and that's my FIL second from the right

My MIL, Siti, Kak Inda (my biras) and I. Welcome to Sharif clan, Siti.

The very nervous Emi and the radiant Siti :D

Best wishes to you, Shahril Helmi and Siti, may Allah bless you always and be strong to go through any obstacles ahead of you. May you find peace and happiness in each other, Amin...

Lately I feel so numb. Malas nak buat apa-apa pun. Usually I can't wait for a long school holidays but not this year. Sometimes I feel so guilty to laugh or to have fun with Rizal and Adia. I know this is not healthy I really-really wish this numbness will go away .

I'm tired of crying, can't even listen to When You're Gone

I know the feeling will go away will but the idea of going through it for a period of time really gets into me.

I'm in a dire need of having a vacation. Tak kira la nak pi mana pun.

Penang pun ok or even SP.

Can't believe I would say this but " Cepatla Sekolah..." I'll Be busy with my school work and InsyaAllah things will be ok.

:'(

I've lost my mum......... 16.11.2009 at 8.30 am and I was not there to hold her, to hug her or to kiss her. Ya Allah, aku sangat sedih.......... Hari ni hari ke4 mak tak da kt rumah lagi and I still feel the pain... Ya Allah... memang aku sangat sangat sedih. Aku hilang kawan yang paling rapat denganku. Tak boleh lagi nak share cerita2 dengan mak. Tak boleh lagi nak balik dr Kulim, masuk bilik mak and terus peluk dia. Aku tak leh buat macam tu lagi and I'm gonna miss that......
Aku tak leh nangis kuat2 sb kesian kt bapak. We have to be strong for him tp sebenaqnya aku tak strong langsung. Ya Allah, peritnya rasa hanya Allah saja yang tahu. Bapak setiap kali bfast, he would cry and that hurts me more...
Nak gelak pun tak mau lagi, I feel guilty kalau dok happy2 sgt, mak aku tak ada lagi kt sini. She was very fond of Adia sb dulu when I was pregnant, everytime she touched my belly, Adia wouldn't move and she got scared. On the day Adia was born, she loved the girl so much. Bila balik, she would greet Adia first la.. Cucu Tok balik or Sayang Tok balik......

Ya Allah, sedihnya hati aku... Aku redha tapi aku sangat2 sedih.... Memang kena banyak sabar tp aku tak kuat.... Aku jauh di Kulim, kalau boleh tiap2 hari nak pi kubur mak tp aku tak mampu nak pi tengok mak tiap2 hari.

Masa hari mak dikebumi tu, aku rasa sedih sangat sebab kena tinggal dia sorang2 tak ada siapa yang nak teman. Dia tak pernah tinggal seorang diri walaupun di rumah. Mesti selalu berteman. Malam tu pulak hujan, risaunya hati nanti mak kena hujan pulak, dia cepat pening. Tapi aku kena sedar, yang di situ hanya jasadnya saja. Nyawanya tiada di situ lagi.

Ya Allah, aku tak tahu apa lagi yang harus aku buat selain sedekahkan Fatihah dan baca Yassin dan doakan untuk mak. Semua orang suruh aku buat macam tu, tapi aku sangat sedih....
Rasa mcm nak jerit kuat2 tapi aku tak boleh buat macam tu...

Ada benda yang kita boleh share with friends, sisters , husband and mum. Tapi aku dah tak leh share apa2 lagi dengan mak except memories and that I definitely will cherish for the rest of my life....................

Nak ikut.....

Kak Ija, Kak Kiah and the rest of the gang are going to this place this Friday....
I can't join them sebab nak exam... Nak ikut...... :(

What I did..

What I did for the last 2 months? Not much to be told. Everything goes as usual.

We celebrated Hari Raya in Alor Setar ( again :D). Classes and school as usual. Oh and, my brother in law (the youngest one who still thinks Ila is one drop dead gorgeous lady!) is getting engaged this coming Aidil Adha. So we'll go to Puchong for the ceremony this November, InsyaAllah. My mother in law requested us to prepare for the hantaran and we did. Order la, mana reti nak buat sendiri. But the customer (my BIL) is one fussy client! Hehehe... Never in my life that I witness a man making a fuss over every single thing about his engagement ceremony. Can't really blame him la, he wants the best for his big day. He hasn't seen the complete set of the hantaran but I hope he likes them as much as his brother and I like them.

Muffin, sugar box and bekas cincin

Our raya picture : Still there's 3 of us but InsyaAllah next year it will be 4! ;))

Hiding my body behind the man...huhu...nampak kecik!

Takluk

It's been a while since I last wrote my entry ya. Been very busy with school, family and assignments...cheh.. not really....

Yes, I've started my classes in USM and to tell you the truth, penat gila.. but kinda fun spending time with new friends. I car pool with two ladies from Kulim, Kak Noreha from MRSM PDRM and this adik Nurul from Kolej MARA. Nice people and easy to work with and fun too. Then we have Fid from Alma and Adz from MRSM Transkrian. These two are in my TESOL Practice Class. Some juniors from UKM, Kaz and Syikin and my Tesl4 senior, Kak Syakirah. Together we study and do assignments. So far so good and no regrets.

We are allowed to take 2 subjects per semester and I took Theory and Practice in TESOL and Statistics Reasoning ( It's called Penaakulan Statistik in BM but we call it Penaklukan Stats). This is really a headache for me la. FYI, I got C6 for my modern maths in SPM and I didn't even take Add Maths. Aiiyyooo... sangat susah!! ANOVA tu apa ha? miu, kiu , chi, x bar, boxplot, stem and leaf, histogram... what the heck la... But never mind, this is a challenge for you Shahid!