Should I?

It has been more than 11 years since I left UKM, and no doubt I had some great memories there with many great friends. And I have been a teacher for more than 10 years now. After teaching in 2 different schools, I am still going on strong ( InsyaAllah). A week before the semester break the kerani in my school gave me this great news from KPM. I have been promoted (time-based la) from DG41 to DG44. That really is a great news, sebab with the new salary (grade 44 ) we will get like RM500++ extra. Alhamdullilah.


And last week, during the first week of the holidays, I got an offer letter to do a Masters Degree in TESOL. Hmm....Tak tau la... Yes, I did apply for it but I didn't expect to get it. Accepting this offer means I would have to change my schedule. Some sacrifices are needed in order to go through this phase of life. It makes me wonder, am I strong enough to walk on water? Smart enough to coming out of the rain? I'm now going where the wind blows....

I'm actually scared to face this new life, scared to be a student again, making new friends, takut tak terkejar nanti with school work, family and classes. Hmmm I really really don't know. My heart says yes, half of my mind says yes too but the other half is saying, "kesian kt Adia, kesian kt Rizal, hidup dah ok, awat nak cari susah, you lead a comfortable life now bla..bla..bla.."

Susahnyaaa...... Well, should I ?

Bapak

His name is Haji Hassan B Othman. He's 84 years old. He is not feeling well now and only eats a small portion of food nowadays. He's getting weak day by day. The old age is really catching up on him.

He used to be a big and strong man, see, he was a farmer. Raising 14 children was not a problem for him and my mum. But, they struggled jugak financially. To raise 14 children was not an easy task to do, but I never heard them complaint.

Being the youngest in the family, I didn't really see the hurdles or obstacles that they faced. Everything was prepared for me, come to the extend where other siblings got envied. I know this, but what the heck? That, my friend, is the advantage of being the youngest ;)

Anyway, I owe him a lot! I can't afford to pay back what he had sacrificed for me. He's a friendly man who likes to chat but now he has became very quiet, and once a while would cry and becoming too emo. Well, that's my pak. He has a soft heart.

I know that everything is in Allah's hand but I'm praying very very hard, if it is the time for him to go, Ya Allah, Kau permudahkanlah segala-galanya. Janganlah Kau membuat dia menderita Ya Allah.

I know sooner or later our parents will have to go and that time,like it or not we will have to face it. Frankly, I'm prepared to face it. Pity him, my pak. I love him as much as I love my mak tapi we seldom show our love and affection to him. Balik2 selalu dengan mak and not once I heard him complaint anak tak tunjuk sayang kt dia. I really hope that he knows that we love him sooo much....

MAY

Adia's poem for my birthday, care to read between the line?

Came home and was greeted by this sign! Sweet kan?

I'm now officially 35 y.o!

Who is more excited?

Simple ja kek ni. I was a bit blurred with the number of candles, ingatkan baru 8 tahun ;)



I always love of the month of MAY. I was born on 12th May, Mother's Day is on the second Sunday of this particular month and teacher's day is on 16th of May. Isn't it great? Having 3 occasions in one whole month. And if I were a nurse, the Nurse's Day is on the 12th of May ;) (talking about greedy huh?)


I'm a Taurus and I came across this article about Taurus:Note: I bolded what I think is true 'bout me:


Taurus isn't necessarily like a Bull in a ring with a toreador. You could be more like peace-loving Ferdinand, seeking the gentle meadows filled with flowers, sunshine and natural beauty. It's only Taurus stubbornness that can make you angry enough to charge at someone who is disturbing your peace. Taurus are noted for your determination. You get to where you are going, not because you are exceptionally fast or clever, but because Taurus will not be distracted from your goals. Your need for stability and simplicity can motivate Taurus to create a life for yourself that is quite functional, though it might seem boring to someone else. But Taurus aren't interested in taking unnecessary risks that can put your solid footing in jeopardy. Taurus motto might be "Take care of the senses and everything else will take care of itself." It may be that your attraction to material things is less about the objects themselves than it is about the pleasure they bring to your senses. Comfortable living and working space is important to Taurus, along with nice linens, clothing, food and music. And, as one of the most practical signs, Taurus outlook on life is usually quite sensible. As Taurus plod along in life, getting what you need in order to survive, don't forget to look at the beauty that is beyond the material world of material possessions.

. Taurus Greatest Strength: Your sensible outlook on life Taurus Possible Weakness: Accepting less than you can achieve



We celebrated a 2 in 1 event recently, my bday and mother's day. Adia was so eager to have a "surprise" party for me but I knew about it beforehand and I just played along ;)

So last Sunday, I acted surprised when I came home from school, there was a small cake and kfc (no presents, I got mine in April). It was a small occasion as there's only 3 of us. But it's ok. I loved every moment of it. Enjoy the pics above ya.

Gundu!

I'm now 50kg! Now that I got your attention, do keep on reading. Haa..ha.. that is the truth my dear friends. 50 + 45 more = 95!!!! That is not fat. that's obese!

Let me tell you something, when I was in my teens and in uni, I was never a thin girl. But the heaviest I would go is 80kg. But I know my friends do accept me for what I am. It didn't really bother me at that time.

In 1998, I got engaged and I was at the peak of my weight, 80kg. It was not a very nice ceremony as I was "rendang" at that time. But deep in my heart I determined to shed some kilos before my wedding in 1999. So I had less than a year to do that. I wanted to be a beautiful bride.

Believe me, it was a painful painful process. But the determination was there and I didn't want to be a joke on my wedding day. Rizal is big but I didn't care coz I love him and it's ok coz he's a man(?!)

Diet? Makan sikit? I've tried all!

What I did was I exercise using skipping rope and cut down on my meal and it worked! On my wedding day, my weight was 56kg! This is a true story as you can see my picture above. Ohh... what a glory glory day it was!

But then, I got pregnant and as time passed by I let myself go......... I started to eat things I love to eat and there's no point or reason for me to lose weight. This was the biggest mistake ever. After giving birth to Adia, I didn't take cake of me. I let myself drifted away.......

This year marks the 10th year of my anniversary and also marks my 95kg! huaaa....

So my dear friends, the moral of the story is do not let youself go, I know we have families to take care but we ( I! ) need to put me first starting right now!

I will not aim for 50 or 55. I'm going for 65-70. Possible? Only time will tell. One thing for sure, I'm going to endure the same process again. Mak tolong!!!!

Do you remember the time?

Do you remember the time when we sang our heart out lagu Sampai Hati at block seven of PPP ? And I actually cried when my block 14 fell for Kak Na ( Tesl 4)? And I thought that was the end of the world where I would never get married and have kids!! Just wanted to marry that block 14 guy.

And I still have your small note hidden inside my thick dictionary asking me to buy Eagles' "Hell Freezes Over", and when I asked for money you would say, ala pakai duit hang dulu! He..he.. I bought it at Subang Parade.

Do you remember when 4 of us went to Subang Parade and watched " The Joyluck Club". I believed that was the best movie ever made. We really really really cried over the movie surrounded by apek2 and nyonyas yg actually understood the plot.

Do you still remember the Yoko Yoko incident? I swore I would never do that again!

Do you remember, every Saturday we would wake up late, put on our windbreakers ( and yours would be a checkered shirt) and had our stroll to Giants to buy the most delicious nasi lemak for our brunch?

You would be the one who prepared my opening speech for our talent night. Can't remember the whole speech but it ended with Sit back and enjoy the show.Ija was one of the actors who played a policewoman but she ended up wearing baju Pak Guard as her costume! Do you remember how we used to love talent nights, and fell for those who played acoustic guitars singing Eric Clapton's Wonderful Tonight. ( Was it Aran?)

And do you still remember studying in 415 and 215 while listening to Pilihan Bersama and our choices of songs would be like what else Sampai Hati, Di Sana Menanti Di Sini Menunggu, Would I lie to You, Dying Inside to Hold You, Sacrifice, Heaven Knows etc etc etc...


Those were the days when we didn't have to think about bills to pay, headcounts, panitia, and so on. I do miss those days but those make us learn more and be more mature and make us who we are,kan?

Huh?

Adia came back from school yesterday and told me something that I really hate to hear. She told me that there was this prefect, she hit Adia and Balkis on the shoulder andthen shouted " Sakit dak, gemuk?" Aiyo, that really pissed me off! I'm a teacher and I know the rules and regulations of being a prefect. You can't simply hit people suka2. So, I called up my friend who happens to be a teacher there and told her everything.

So, today she came home and told me that her PK HEM went to her class to investigate the case. She asked Adia what really happened and promised to take actions. And before she went out, she said " Balik bagitau kt mak,na". Bagitau kat mak? Takut kena saman ka? I won't do that of course but children can be cruel sometimes. A slap on a wrist won't hurt a child kan?

I'm not protecting my daughter, kalau salah memang salah. But she did not do anything wrong at that time and so did her friend.

So, we will see whether actions will be taken or not.

Walamak susahnya!!

I was extremely busy with school works that I didn't have time to read my friends' blogs. And today, got an assignment from DKNY and alamak susahnya but here goes..
Rules:It's harder than it looks!
Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag twenty people.Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions.They have to be real; nothing made up!If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers.You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.
Have Fun!! Don't Forget to post it...!!

1. What is your name : Norshahida
2. four Letter Word : Nest
3. A boy's Name : Nabil
4. A girl's Name : Nora
5. An occupation : Nurse
6. A color : Navy blue
7. Something you'll wear : Necklace
8. A food : Nasi ( can aa??)
9. Something found in the bathroom : Net
10. A place : Negeri Sembilan
11. A reason for being late : No transport!
12. Something you'd shout : No way!!
13. A movie title : Nasib Si Labu Labi
14. Something you drink : Nescafe
15. A musical group : New Kids On The Block
16. An animal : Nightingale
17. A street name : (?) Tak dak ler!
18. A type of car : Nissan
19. The title of a song : Nothing's gonna change my love for you


I won't tag 20 friends as people seldom read my blog, sowi ;)